caramel no himitsu

New Fav Couple haha MJ-Nino!!!

Tue, 29 May 2007 16:02:59 GMT

nino kakkoi looks haha~

Tue, 29 May 2007 15:29:13 GMT

Undeniable face!!!

Gelar Jepang~I should've posted it 2 weeks ago!!

Tue, 29 May 2007 15:08:02 GMT

Gelar Jepang 2007 @ University of Indonesia.

Heard what Sita said a few days ago that there’ll be Japanese event held in University of Indonesia. She asked me if I wanted to go with her, and I said YES!! I’ve been waiting to see this kind of event. I also asked my friend from IPB to join us since she had a very bad week, my cousin also wanted to go. So the plan was four of us were going to go on Saturday by train. Bu something came up, Sita didn’t send me any SMS or calls about the plan this morning. She said she didn’t feel good last night so I thought she might get sick, and I was right hehe.. So, the three of us were left to go with the plan.
We got there at around 12.00 and straight to the auditorium, took some pictures and just walking around.. It was hot and crowded, but fun, I met Ko Andi there hehe sashiburi.. And some customers looked at me when Ko Andi gave me the discount price for L’Arc En Ciel’s cds (bukan salah gue dong hehe..)
Kind a spying game what I did then, didn’t plan it before but yeah maybe half of me felt curious about something in karaoke’s section. I was informed that one ridiculous forum tried to spread some pamphlets about their unofficial forum in there in order to get some notification about their presence. Well I’m desperately curious! And I heard one of the members was registered for karaoke’s competition. So I went in to auditorium and watch the competition. First contestant was good, she sang Do As Infinity’s Fukai Mori (Inuyasha’s ending song), not to bad. And there’s something I’ve been curious about, she sang Arashi’s Hero soooo bad!!! Need more practice!! Why didn’t she tried to sing together with others, five members like Arashi (as they said they are the most biggest Arashi’s fan, sigh!!), as Arashi’s fan I’m so embarrassed, so sad seeing Hero was sang like that. The song was supposed to represent Arashi’s feeling about those unfortunate people and all handicaps in Japan, that’s the song was about, it must have the sense of encouraging them..
I like the 4th contestant who sang Hamasaki Ayumi’s Voyage, I think she sang the song even better that Ayumi herself hehe. She has better voice and she sang from the heart. And as far as I know she got the highest score from the juries. I didn’t finish seeing the competition coz my legs started to feel numb (we were standing guys, no chairs left to sit).
Bought Monster’s burger for lunch before we went back home, and saw those ridiculous forum’s kids walking around with their red uniform. My friend asked me, what kind of Arashi fan are they, I said hmm some imposter’s club who tried to get famous in a second. Ga tau mendadak jadi aneh liat mereka.. So we left UI at around 15.00, otsukaresama.. it was fun though. Oh almost forgot! I nearly dropped or destroyed a red blocks which made for Inuyasha’s set hehe I thought that was made from wood!! Machigatta! It was aluminium foil hehe, that was close! I was so excited seeing some children made an aikido demo, sugeee na! Kakkoi mitai hehe. Then we went back home, went to the station but unlucky for us, we never made it jump into the train, three trains and all were full with people! Finally the fourth train came up and we made it in to the train. Well, jya ne University of Indonesia, mata onaji shiai de..
I fell asleep after maghrib until 8pm and wake up to make this review. Now I’m going back to sleep again.. oyasumi nasai minna..

Which one is the best..

Wed, 11 Apr 2007 02:15:46 GMT

Hai my dear LJ, it's been a long time coz Live Journal is down for a while.
Indonesian mode aja deh, pengen curhat..

Once again, sekali lagi gue berada di posisi antara dua pihak, gue sendiri ga berpihak ama yang mana2, I am me, gue ya gue, pilihan gue ya pilihan gue. Gue cuman merasa berhak untuk mendengar saja, en ga perlu ambil tindakan apa-apa, karena memang bukan hak gue untuk mengambil tindakan apapun. SUsah ya kalo gini tapi ya itulah hidup, gue pernah mencoba menganalisa sendiri semua hal yang cuma gue denger en berakhir tidak mengenakan buat gue. In the end, keliatan gue nampak jadi pihak yang bersalah. Sooo gue ga mau kayak gitu lagi, cuman ngabisin energi doang, padahal masih banyak permasalahan lain yang lebih membutuhkan energi en bikin stress. Kalo udah gini gue cuman bisa berharap kondisi tidak memburuk dan semua bisa introspeksi mana yg baik en mana yang tidak semestinya. As for me, there's always Allah SWT who fulfilled my needs to talk about everything in my life. And I'm so gratefull with that.

Jadi inget, temen-temen MMA gue ngadain piknik, I'm invited tentunya. Tapi hari minggu ada acara nikahan Cely my dear best friend, hari sabtu ada undangan Dianne's birthday party. Gue pusing musti pergi kemana, setelah mikir-mikir akhirnya gue pilih ke Cely, karena kita-kita juga yang maksa dia bikin party disini coz we can't make it to her wedding in Pekanbaru. Tapi setelah keluar keputusan kayak gitu, gue mikir mungkin udah semestinya begitu, gue orangnya paling ga enakan ama orang jadi seringkali salah bikin keputusan yang justru membuat keadaan and hubungan gue ama temen-temen gue jadi ga bagus. Tapi sekarang mungkin udah dibuat jalannya seperti itu.. Dulu gue berprinsip, kitalah yang milih temen tapi sekarang ga cuman kita yang milih, tapi musti dipikirin juga apakah mereka milih kita? and what the proof of that? A little bit demanding but cukup baik untuk bisa selektif memilih teman. Kembali ke masalah piknik, gue ternyata ga bisa ikut karena acara Cely tadi, tadinya sih ga enak banget tapi gue pikir kan gue udah janji lebih dulu ama Cely and setelah banyak hal yang terjadi di kampus gue, gue rasa gue udah ga mau stick together and sharing apapun ama mereka. If there's a better option I might choose to go to Dianne's party. But Cely does important, coz it's about her wedding day. Gue coba posisikan gue sendiri klo jadi dia pasti gue kecewa banget kalo teman terdekat gue ga dateng ke acara yang khusus dibuat untuk temen-temen yang ga bisa dateng itu.

Friendship is tough, but still I wanna make friends but maybe not as much as I used to be, as long as they can remember me, care for me, there for me, and love me for what I am, laugh together, weep together. Semakin banyak perbedaan mungkin baik karena bisa digunakan sebagai alat introspeksi, kalo temen kita baik kita usahakan lebih baik, kalo temen kita kurang baik ya kita tunjukin kalo kita tetep bisa baik ama dia...curhat of the day haha..

nino now...huhu kakkoi!

Thu, 14 Dec 2006 05:20:16 GMT

lupa^^

Thu, 14 Dec 2006 05:13:06 GMT

I forgot to post this!!

Nino then..

last month of 2006

Thu, 14 Dec 2006 04:53:55 GMT

Almost the end of this year.. I want to make some review for my life this year..
First of all, what has happened to me this whole year.. (Indonesian mode ah)

Start from the stupid things I’ve done..
- gue ga bisa mencapai target, target apakah itu? Tentunya ngeberesin tesis gue bulan desember ini, molor bow karena datanya susah banget didapet, sial banget.. ganbatte deh pokoknya, paling ga januari gue dah sidang lagi..
- salah menilai orang..hmm pasti semua orang pernah begini, tapi gue parah banget.. mungkin karena terlalu banyak berharap en terlalu gede ppikiran positifnya, gue kayak ditusuk dari belakang ama temen gue sendiri, dikhianatin (bo!bahasanya haha) ama temen yang gue percaya banget en memberi efek yang kurang baik ama gue yang sekarang.. gue susah percaya ama orang, jadi selalu mikir jelek en males ktemu ama temen-temen gue.. I know ga semua begitu..
- jadi cewek paling cengeng yang gue kenal! Ih sumpah gue paling benci yang satu ini, gue jadi cengeng, dikit-dikit nangis, masalah sepele nangis, puncaknya yang paling memalukan adalah gue ga bisa nahan nangis pas temen gue ada sedikit salah ngomong ke gue, OMG! Gue benci gue yang kayak giniT_T!
- boros banget!yup, gue boros banget taun ini, banyak banget pengeluaran karena gue seneng mondarmandir jalan-jalan, stress banget juga ga tapi gue jadi seneng jalan-jalan sendiri tanpa diganggu orang laen.. maaf ya kalo gue kadang males bales sms dulu2 itu..
- gue jadi sering berantem ama temen-temen baek gue yang sebenernya ga bermasalah ama gue *sigh*
- gue jadi orang yang kurang sabar ngadepin banyak hal en terlalu menganggap gue yang paling susah (bego banget kan^^)

Tapi dari semua hal diatas ada beberapa hal yang bisa gue ambil hikmahnya en bikin gue jadi lebih baik...
- jadi lebih bisa milih temen, semoga ga salah lagi..
- jadi lebih hati-hati klo ngomong, biar ga nyakitin orang en bikin gue malah disakitin..
- lebih hemat en ga sembarangan beli barang-barang yang ga perlu, gue pengen nabung banyak untuk modal proyek gue hehe..
- harus bisa mencapai target lulus en kerja awal taun depan (Harus, man! Kapan lageee??)

Beberapa hal yang terjadi kayaknya bikin gue jadi lebih pendiam^^, bener lho, karena gue ga mau jadi orang yang kebanyakan ngomong hehe.. well paling ga di lingkungan gue sekarang di kampus. Gue harus lebih bijaksana en ga jadi pemarah. Kadang masihlah nangis, tapi sendiri aja ga perlu sampe nangis barengan temen, udah cukup gue jadi melemah karena banyaknya tekanan disana-sini en masalah ga cuman ama lingkungan pertemanan tapi ama keluarga juga. So I hope I become a better person next year and become more and more wise dalam mengambil keputusan yang tepat.

alow minna^^

Sat, 02 Dec 2006 03:48:20 GMT

It's been too long... kinda lazy to post anything in here.. ne irini-chan, I don't know how to add your LJ huhuhu but I've sent an invitation to join my LJ (even ga ngerti maksudnya apa hehe)

Kagen No Tsuki yang KEnshin banget^^

Mon, 11 Sep 2006 01:28:33 GMT

Sunday, September 10th, 2006
Mumpung masih inget nih.. Kyaaaaaa Sita showed me Kagen no Tsuki's PV by Doumoto Koichi!Sugee..sugoi kakkoi Koichi da! It's like, Doumoto Kenshin hehe coz the PV's storyline is look alike with Rurouni Kenshin's anime^^. The scene, the clothes (even yukata's color and the sword, man!), the seperation between Koichi and the girl in the PV, and the last is the X scratch in his face!OMG! But he's so damn kakkoi! Sita arigatou chu~. Will post the caps later guys^_^.

finally I've made my new entry..

Mon, 11 Sep 2006 01:26:38 GMT

Konichiwaaaaaa!!!!

I'm so into manga these days^^..feels like I'm back to the old days.. you see, I've stopped myself for buying those manga stuff about 5 years ago coz that time I thought that the best idea to save my money^^ but..jang! now I'm back and even worst, tasuketeeee..!

I don't know why, maybe I'm just bored reading novels or college books hehe.. I'm so damn bored *sigh*. I'm listening Nino's BAYSTORM now^^ and huaaaa I'm choo miss this guy! He's promoting Aozora Pedal, mmm I don't really like the song, not the lyric I mean, I feel that the music don't touch my feeling, but the lyric is good^^. Trying to download the single now hehe got no money for buying..

Downloading Tsubasa Chronicle's manga now.. help me saving my money, thanks to the internet connection in my campus, on holiday I meanT_T.. Ups I've just seen Nino's thrailler movie, mmm he's kinda cute <3 looks too small for a soldier but I hope he's doing his best for the part. Nino always does....

nampaknya dah lama ya gue ga ngisi LJ hehe.

Sashiburii da ne!
things work as usual, school, thesis, browsing and downloading has become my daily activity. Well, not everyday actually hehe, I've got nothing to do anyway beside reporting my thesis. The good thing about not going to campus everyday is I can manage everything in my room the way I like. Geser sana geser sini deh jadinya hehe. You can see my room on the picture below, what d'you think?Not too big but enough for me to do anything there. I remembered seeing Nino's room sketch and suddenly wanted to pimp my bedroom, apa hubungannya coba? I've added a small table, tatami table hehe, and put one of my cabinet on the top of it, and jang!! Not bad, a little crowded but more arranged than before. My white cabinet is full with books and miscellanious stuffs such as picture frames, dolls, mug (Hello Kitty mug^^), mags, etc. And I put my compo on the upper side of the cabinet, I painted myself yo! After I put all the stuffs on its places, walaaa it turned out that almost all my stuffs has a pink color! That's why I'm kinda sick of this color right now huhu..

Review of ARASHIC DVD (credit ti Irini's DVD, thanks for letting me making the screencaps, dear..)
You won't regret what you've decided to buy ARASHIC dear..to bad I didn't have money that timeT_T. Nino was so great on the concert, I love sakurasake part the most! Arashi's the bestlah pokoknya! Too bad no official full One concert dvd released. Trying to save my money for the next dvd they'll released, I hope that would be this year but I don't know...Review of Aozora Pedal's dvd will be up next coz I haven't made any screen caps from the dvd.

Wishes.. emang yang ultah doang yang boleh punya wish haha.. I just want to drop the wishes in here, just to remind me..
- I wish I could upgrade my laptop with better specs than now (but I'm satisfied enough with mine right now^^)
- I wanna buy a new mobilephone, I want Sony Ericsson Z800 (so that I still can use my Sony memory stick duo, coz it used to be along with my camera, but the camera is broke nowT_T) and a BenQ-Siemens AL6 (if I'm not mistaken) coz it has Hello Kitty style! Ga penting banget kan!
- I want a bigger room! Yang ga mungkin banget kecuali gue pindah rumah haha
- I wanna have extra power to do more, kayak iklan kan^^
- I wanna have a lot of money.. makanya Qis, cepetan lulus duong, beresin tuh tesis!

Gath last week, met some new faces and old buddies too. I'm having a great time with my foot felt like it doesn't there anymore, capekk banget tapi ga berasa, I went to the Job Festival before I'm off to Plaza Semanggi to met the girls. Kyaa it was fun, and finally, I finally know what it's like in Kin no Taki, haha telat banget kan gue! Maklum dong, blum pernah kan.. lagian ga cuman gue yg norak, Lila juga hehe. Spent the night at Irini's with Endah Kouki join us, thank you Ndah udah luangin waktu buat bermalam bersama saya hehe lumayan bisa liat Kame berDreamBoy, sugee he's so kakkoi.. tapi trus liat Arashic lagi en Nino still the most kakkoi otoko ever for me huehehehe.. Trus ngintip Sapuri 7, uwaahhhh they kissed! Lucu juga dengan tinggi yang agak ga seimbang hehe tapi tetep manis, mbok ya mbak Misaki Itoh tuh jangan pake hak tinggi gitu, coba bayangkan gimana jadinya kalo maen ama Nino?Tidakkk ga bisa ngebayangin deh gue hehe but the storyline is so sweet, I like the drama. I went home the next day by train, I'm standing all the way huhu no seats for me, well what d'you expected from an economic train haha, but thank God I got home safe and my mom and dad picked me up at the train station (thankyou bapak dan ibu tersayang, kaki ini udah ga nahan hhehe mo patah rasanya!). We went for Bumi Serpong Damai from the station to pick my nephew up. Taihennnn, tsukarechatta mo!!! Btw ndah, noren gue gatau mo dipasang dimana:( tau gitu mending beli payung deh hehe..

And speaking of drama, I really really want to watch Yamada Takayuki's new drama with Erika Sawajiri called Taiyou no uta. Tried to download the flv file but haven't finish yet. I like the soundtrack, Shibasaki Kou's Invitation, Yui's song and Erika Sawajiri herself, and I've realised something, almost all Yamada Takayuki's drama's soundtrack are sang by Shibasaki Kou! Lucu..

Eh jadi inget, gue dah posting ini blom ya? I've watched Narimiya Hiroki's Ima Ai Ni Yukimasu. A so sweet drama, I love the cast, I like Mimura so much! Narimiya-kun kinda kakkoi here, tapi kadang nyengir juga klo inget dia di Stand Up and film laennya, kan dia sering dikasi peran ecchi hehe..

Hmm soredake de ne, udah ga ada yang pengen ditulis lagi..next time deh.. Hey, this is my current desktop wallpaper guys! Nino pastinya hehe..

ganbarimasu!

Fri, 11 Aug 2006 02:40:46 GMT

Sashiburiiii my journal^^

Life's been ok for me, kadang baik kadang buruk, well that's life^^. Miss you Irini-chanT_T wanna blab all my problems with but since my mom always stay up all night these days I can't talk on the phone, meirushitari on the phone is not enough to talk about everything. Luckily I have a bunch of arashi's downloads (thanks to my new friend whose in love with Nino too haha *himitsu*). And also a kinki kids yay! I love their new single called 'natsumoyou' (hmm apa artinya ya ta?).

Just remember, I'm having a fight with my friend in campus, I've talked about her before, a girl who always want us to do what she wants! Huh! Finally after a year being patient, I finally againts her, I'm tired to be patient with her!

Hmm indonesian mode..
iya as I said before, tu anak emang ga tau diri banget! inget kan ra, cewek yang bikin gue nangis melulu^^, tapi that's it, udah cukup gue ngalah terus, akhirnya gue lega udah bisa ngebantah dia, gue pengen sekali aja dia sadar kalo ga cuman dia yang punya masalah, ga cuman dia yang bisa nuntut orang laen supaya nurutin maunya dia, huh emang gue apaanT_T. Lega juga abis ngomel..

sekarang gue ga terlalu peduli penilaian orang ke gue, terserah orang mo nilai apa yang penting gue berusaha ga merugikan orang lain. Ne, Irini-chan, you want to be a better person, I also gotta be a better person, first thing first, for me artinya gue musti belajar untuk ga pelupa banget, gawat! I must rearrange everything one by one^^. But please, don't ever tired to remind me.. I really need a big reminder now.. But I can't ask too much from others, the most importance thing is I gotta do it my self first!

hehe gue curhat ga jelas nih, abis rasanya kayak pengen ngomongin banyak hal tapi ga keluarT_T... tapi gue dah ga terlalu cengeng lagi hehe.. GANBARIMASU!!

my heart..

Sun, 18 Jun 2006 05:17:16 GMT

jadi dua postingan deh sehari hehe..yg tadi tuh udah dua mingguan gue ketik tp blom sempet posting..

back with my journal..life is just as ussual..ordinary life but I've got the funny feeling that I'm totally changed into another person..

why?well, I met with my old buddies last week and so great that I was having a wonderfull time with them.. something I really missed so much lately. I did having a great time.. but this is funny coz I think I begin to think about what's gonna happen with my life after this.. Cely's about to get married next year, I'm so happy for her:), Ipeh has become a very open person (gue seneng lo share masalah lo ama kita, coz u know what, I still can't believe we got the same problems..family matters.. yang ga semua orang bisa dipaksa untuk ngerti he..he..).

Indonesian mode..
Mungkin iya..kami udah jadi lebih dewasa dalam menyikapi banyak hal. Gue pribadi banyak nemuin masalah di kampus gue, yang nyenengin, nyakitin dan sebagainya. Tapi gue harus berterimakasih sama kejadian-kejadian itu, karena secara ga langsung kejadian-kejadian itulah yang bikin gue jadi lebih peka en lebih siap buat ngadepin segala hal. Tapi 1 hal yang gue percaya..waktu ga bakal kembali soo I wanna do something yang bikin gue hepi and berarti. Hmm, klise banget ya tapi yah itulah yang terjadi ama gue..

Nee Irini-chan dear.. gue mungkin banyak ga nyambung lagi ngomongin arashi-arashian ya? gomen ne, gue emang lagi ga pengen ngobrolin itu.. gue masih suka ama arashi tapi mungkin ga kayak dulu lagi.. gue udah ga ngerasa perlu beli barang-barang arashi en bener-bener liat arashi or other johnnys things. Sekarang ini ada hal yang lagi bikin gue agak kepikiran.. to be honest, sekarang gue lahi pengen banget punya orang yang bisa diajak sharing, ngedengerin en stay by my side even when I don't really need him, well I said him jadi taulah hehe..Gue aja kaget pas terfikir begitu hehehe. Tapi mungkin juga karena gue lonely banget yaa.. Dapet cowok ga beres pula hihi.. salah gue juga waktu itu, ngebiarin semuanya terjadi, baka me! Tapi yahh gue ambil sisi positifnya aja deh, gue bisa belajar bahwa ga semua cowok baek bener-bener baek:). Tapi sedih juga sih kalo inget. It passed..

Nah..sekarang ada cowok yang deket lagi ama gue en I accidentally in love with him hehe.. tapi yang ini gue ga berani berasumsi seperti dulu, let it flow aja.. en not hoping too much! Itu yang penting:D. Tadinya gue pikir beneran cinlok ternyata even kemaren pagi gue masih tetep suka liat dia hihi.. gue baru pulang dari bandung en pagi-pagi udah ditungguin en disuguhin lagunya my heart haha.. (emang lagi nyetel aja kali yee). Well, still don't know what's gonna happen but I'm very carefull this time!

Ada 1 hal lagi yang gue sadarin.. ternyata gue udah berubah jadi orang yang males ngobrol:D. Rasanya garing banget kalo gue ngomong en banyakan ga nyambungnya bo! Ini yang gawat! Tapi yaahh emang gue lagi banyak pikiran banget en mostly about my family. Ada juga yang ga berhubungan ama keluarga tapi gue takut setengah mati:( huhuhu kamera gue rusak! En itu kan kado jadi gue takut banget bilang ama bokap gue klo rusak karena yang ngerusakin bukan gue tapi temen gue.. gue bingung aja, pas lagi susah gini musti ngeluarin duit pula. Walo temen gue mo gantiin tapi dia ga sanggup full bisanya 1/2 aja. Yaaah berarti gue musti prepare juga khan. Tapi ternyata teman-teman gue tercinta disini pada mikirin gue juga.. mereka nyariin solusi buat gue, thank you guys, that's mean a lot. Tetep temenin gue nyari tempat service yang bisa ya..hehe..

Hmm kayaknya banyak hal yah yang terjadi.. salah satunya gue juga sadar rasanya gue udah jarang ngaji hehe.. gawat nih! Pantesan aja ketenangan gue ilang. Karena kesibukan tugas dan sebagainya gue jadi pemalas! And I have to start ngaji lagi..

Well lega juga setelah ngetik. Dari kemaren kayak orang linglung, nyetir ga beres, bengong melulu hehe.. sorry ya temans.. untung ada kalian yang ngingetin.. love you all..

sunday in my beloved campus^^

Sun, 18 Jun 2006 05:14:38 GMT

unsatisfied feeling..

I just love the background on my desktop image.. our faces with hapinness and nothing more..

I wanna make my entry in Indonesian mode..I got so many things that I wanna say..

Anyer june, 2006..
Perjalanan yang ga seperti yang gue bayangin sebelumnya. Niat mulia gue adalah to make this trip to be my last memorable moments with my post graduate friends, tapi ternyata ga sesuai..well ga semuanya berjalan seperti yang kita inginkan bukan?

on the departure day..
Mood gue sangat sangat buruk waktu itu. Ada sedikit masalah sama temen baek gue en mungkin gue PMS juga kali, pokoknya gue rasanya udah pengen makan orang eh ga deng, pengen mukul yang berakhir justru gue nangis ga jelas (that I'm so ashamed!). Entah apa yang ada di kepala gue saat itu, tapi mungkin berat jadi pemicu sedikit yang bikin gue kesel udah bikin gue nangis, damn!

Ada perasaan jenuh terlalu sering bareng ama temen-temen gue, mungkin kelamaan sama-sama justru bikin bosen en malah bikin gue ga pengen ngobrol. Apa perasaan gue aja apa gimana rasanya kuping gue capek dengerin temen gue Nona, ngomong karena dia kalo ngomong bikin kuping pekak!

Well back to anyer things..
Banyak yang bikin gue bertanya-tanya..apakah keputusan gue untuk pergi ke anyer bener or ga, karena bahkan setelah kita kembali ke Bogor gue ga ngerasain happy or else. Maybe I'm forcing my self to do something yang sebenernya gue ga mau. Tapi gue mau ke anyer tapi ga pengen ngikutin acara-acara yang ga jelas. I love the sea and I wish I could share with you my friends..

Masa gue nangis cuma karena Panji temen gue marah, ga ge banget kan! Tapi itulah yang terjadi..suddenly jadi inget cowok yang lagi gue suka, mungkin enak banget jadi dia yang ga pernah maksain ikut kumpul2 tapi tetep hepi. I envy you Jack..

Yaahhh gitu deh, ternyata ga banyak yg bisa gue ceritain soal anyer karena lumayan ga rame menurut gue:D.

Bogor, back from anyer..
Ada acara testimonial di anyer waktu itu and I got shocked karena ternyata temen-temen gue punya penilaian yang aneh tentang gue.. kita ngungkapin ketidakpuasan kita di testimonial itu.. en gue kayak kena tampar pas Monik temen gue bilang bahwa gaul ama gue en Nona bikin dia jadi sering ngegosipin orang!OMG rasanya gue ga pernah ngomongin orang kecuali gue kena ruginya deh.. tapi ya udahlah udah terjadi mo gmn lg..tapi rasanya ga terima aja.. still trying to make myself happy again nih.

damn assignment!

Sun, 28 May 2006 01:39:51 GMT

On sunday and I'm already stuck in my campus. So boring but gotta have to do this coz Wi Fi works so much in browsing all the materials I need to finish my tasks. And works for me to download all the video I want either :D..
Still downloading Attention Please from youtube and Palace from torrent site:D. My days are filled with internet stuffs right now..

Almost forgot..
Last night suddenly I'm thinking about my life and what would my life be if I don't buy those Arashi's stuffs again.. I don't know why I thought about that. Irini sms me the other night said that preorder for Arashi's new album is out now! And kinda felt guilty to her coz I don't feel shock and..well I always bought Arashi's stuff then but now I don't feel like I have to buy those stuffs again. Actually, the problem is that my family kinda lack of income right now and I have pay for my educational stuffs like books and fee for about another 3-6 month. Well, it's not like we didn't have any money but I really have to consider what things has to become my first priority. And now I don't see that buying Arashi's stuffs is my first priority. I haven't stopped liking arashi or Nino :D but maybe I'll stop buying the things related to them. I have my priority to finish my magister study before september and find a good job so that I won't ask for money to my parents again if I want to buy stuffs I want:D niat mulia kan.. I guess when things change we've gotta be ready for any reaction we might get..

pics with my friends..

Fri, 26 May 2006 06:41:01 GMT

I love this pics...

entry..

Fri, 26 May 2006 06:22:45 GMT

Confused..
I got so many things in my mind..first of all, I wanna say sorry to my dear friend Irini-chan. Coz maybe there's a different principle beetween us 'bout one thing. I don't know if you'll get what I meant or no through those sms we've had. Here's what I think, hope it won't make another misunderstanding between us, okay.

About 'baka rules'..
for Irini..since sms can get the wrong idea:D

The rules are getting tight in the group, yes I admitted that and a little bit don't agree with all the rules coz as for me whose sometimes so busy so that I can't managed seeing the updated news in the group, the rules are really hard. But I think maybe, just maybe, the mods did the right think to prevent what might happen. I don't know..but that's just what I thought today. It's not that I don't care about the group but I'm a kind of person who'll avoid things that'll make the bad air becoming worst. I'm so sorry if my opinion don't match with yours. But that's what comes in my mind now. I don't wanna make myself heard you said, yeah maybe I am like that and that's my choice:) and I don't complain coz I might be one of those people who made things became like this, didn't post much but demanding too much:D. No joke but I feel guilty, the problem is if I make a comment for the group about that I feel like I'm gonna have to get involve again and again. That's the thing I want to avoid, remember why I shut my blog off?:D this's the reason, I don't want to get involved with something which I don't think will bring a better result for us. If you're angry with my opinion, that's your right:) I don't mind. But to be honest, yes that's my opinion. I just think those rules things came up coz maybe there's some certain people who bring the trigger for the mod:) to do such things. So I'm just gonna do nothing for now coz I don't think that'll make everything or everyone feel satisfied. I didn't say that put my voice to the group is not important, I just wanna say that I don't agree but that's it for now. Hope this thing didn't make us feeling bad for each other:( sorry, bad english:D..

About Arashi's Kitto Daijyoubu..

The pv is so colorfull! I love the scenes so very much! And Nino there with hat covering his head :D so cute, and the most adorable member goes to Matsumoto Jun, I think! He looks so cool and charming with that black hair of his. Sho-kun what happen with the hair? But funny seeing him with those 'almost curly' hair:D.

Kitto Daijyobu's performances rocks! Music station with and without Nino were great, they look so fine and cheer up. Nino looks healthy considering that he's just coming back from LA doing the movie. I think the best performance for kitto daijyobu is one in music station on May 12th. The suit and the dance were great and I really love seeing them in the show:D.

I almost forgot:D I got something in my heart haha.. I think I'm kinda have a crush on my mate:D. Funny, coz he's been in my days like for more than a year and I just felt the crush a few days ago. Hope that's just monkey-monkey love:D coz I don't wish my feeling to be more melted and get so much into this stupid feeling. Well, he's been nice to me and I just felt that he's nice after we're in the same group for one of our assignment! Stupid huh? But who could've controll and predict what's gonna happen? Damn, I should've felt that way coz he's uhmmm younger than me:D. Abunai!! Told my 3 best friends in school and I got different reaction from all of them:(. One said, relax..maybe it's just the crush built by condition, the other said "Hah?" ans that's it:D, and the last reaction I've got is "Oh My God! Why now?" and she (my friend) bang her head to my car window hahaha..baka! But I'm relieved after I told about that to my friends:D. But the bad part is, they can't hold their smile or laughing at me if the guy I'm having a crush on come to talk to me! Ohh guys, shut up! I'll be blushing if they did that, like what happen today:D.

See you next time.. get some sleep now, my mom asked me to do some jogging with her tomorrow morning so I really have to go to bed early since I never manage wake up early:D..jya..

sleepy..

Wed, 17 May 2006 08:02:30 GMT

so sleepy..I'm left alone finishing my work..all of my group members are in class coz my marketing class got no lesson today so..gotta finish my work otherwise I'll be home late again.. poor my mom, I'm too busy with my assignment, I barely have no time to accompany her.. gomen ne mommy..
Heard Nino sang 3/9 from 1 Litre No Namida soundtrack on Mago-mago!! I already cut the singing part and convert the video into mp3 and made it as my phone ringtone! Arigatou Irini-chan..

my feeling recently..

Wed, 10 May 2006 05:18:38 GMT

Still figuring out what's wrong with these days...
Trouble with besties, I just never thought this thing would happen. Maybe I become less in sense of understanding with my friends. But I don't think so, the only think I know is that if I did something wrong I have to appoligize no matter what. I get confused :).. I got chicken pox and when I went back to school I got problems..

But I'm having a great time last weekend, my old besties came over and spent their nights in my crib! Yay! I'm so happy! In the other hand I got a problem but in the other hand some happy moments came to me. God really is fair... When I think it over, maybe I'm just to tired being in the two different environment with my besties. Kinda make me feel mixed up.

Irini-chan always send her sms to me, encourage me indirectly (thank you dear:) even though I can't make the reply hehehe.. lack of pulsa, gomen ne..). I thank God for giving me the greatest best friens ever, I have old school buddies (still miss u guys..), japanese community buddies (some are the best ever, thank you minna..) and now my post graduate buddies:D, what a friends! And I hope those'll last forever. I always believe that friendships never run smooth, small problem always come up and need to be solved, that's why when I think the problem managed to be solved I always wish that friendship will last forever. Simple but silly:) but I have my faith in that, in my friendships and for all my best friends.

Ne..Irini-chan, if you read this you'll know how I feel.. Gomen ne for replying your sms just like that:(, I didn't feel like wanna share my problem through sms thing, I'm afraid you might get the wrong idea:). Actually I don't have pulsa too :( but thanx to my mom I managed stealing her pulsa hehe.. I really miss you.. really want to go to Jakarta, but my mom got sick, kayaknya ga diberkahi banget deh gue ke jakarta:(, bt!

By the way, I really love this Live Journals, I can post anything and publish my entry right a way. Nee Irini-chan, I don't mind you join the akaliane family, I can open the akaliane when the internet traffic in my school's not crowded coz there's a baka downloader who always using a hard download manager like flashget to get large files:(.

Indonesian mode..
Dosen-dosen juga ga kompromi deh, gampang banget ngilangin mood orang! Ganti jadwal seenaknya, bikin bt mahasiswa hiks.. tugas-tugas itu..kok ga habis-habisnya ya.. tapi salah gue sendiri yang menumpuk tugas en terlalu nyantai. Tapi ga juga sih, gue sempet kena cacar sih jadi kacau planning gue.

Oops almost forgot, recently I really love Uverworld's Just Melody, the song give more power to do more hahaha.. so great when I hear the song, powerfull. That reminds me, my class forced to sing Josh Groban's You Raise Me Up! That was the second time my class forced to sing, man.. the first one is I have A Dream, I don't know who sang the song first but I remember the song was sang by Boyzone:D. Kerjaan dosen-dosen gila! But that was the best time I've got in studying moments:D kapan lagi bo!

And one more assignment which make my class looks like a drama school! We had to make a presentation about business communication subject but must represented the subject using our own creativity, see? We're business student, not a drama school, but that's what we become right now:D. That's fun anyway, I have my last performance with my new group next week, wish me luck my friends:D.

Time to sleep now, my eyes start to close and open irregularly hehe gue ngetik apaan sih? tambah ga beres deh, berarti ngantuk berat! I'll see you guys when I made my other entry.. See ya! Good Bye! Oyasumi nasai..

I'm in blue..

Sat, 06 May 2006 04:16:17 GMT

Feels like wanna cry coz there's something wrong with one of my best friends, I might did something that made her mad at me, I guess, but I don't know why. She suddenly stop talking to me. With no explainations! Sometimes I got angry too but I'm a kind of person that can't keep a problem for myself for days! I always talk right a way. So sad that our friendship suddenly look changed... Since I'm a girl I felt like wanna crying...